SUNDAY 18^TH DECEMBER………..

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o today has been a chilled day we’ve all just spent the day lounging about on the sofa watching films had a few chocolates well we demolished a box of maltesers within minutes. A perfect Sunday for me especially as I’m still not feeling 100% after being ill.

The girls have no school tomorrow yippee J which I love, I love having them at home with me. I’ve been called selfish and that if I ever did home school I’d be damaging them they would be uneducated unsocialised beasts of the human race (ok maybe not the part of the beasts of human race but I normally switch off when people show no leeway in their opinions’!!) I’ve been thinking of homeschooling for a while toying it over and over in my head I’ve written endless lists of pro’s and cons. I’ve spoken to people who do home school and people who think school is the right thing to do.

 I’m trying not to get my thoughts on how my school life went affect my thoughts after all my children are different the situation is different, but it stills stays in my head I don’t want them to go through what I went through. The social minefield that is school who has the latest trainers the biggest parties who knows who and who’s daddy plays with who’s daddy at the golf course on a Friday afternoon………..it all kinda bored me I found it idiotic yet at every chance I got a tried to impress people with who I thought I wanted to be.

I don’t want that for my girls I want them to be able to learn in a safe environment, for them to feel that their opinions’ and thoughts are valued that they have a voice they have this at home but who’s to say they will have it in a class of 30 at school?

The girls are currently at the local school 2mins walk round the corner it’s a poor area doesn’t get the best results and I’m just generally not happy with it. Am I mad for thinking that I can teach these two little people everything they need to know about the world?! I’m rubbish at math but I can get by how would I teach science!!??

Then days like today I think I don’t need the little plastic counters to teach my child how to do fractions….. Just ask lettie to give her and summer the same amount of stickers each……. She does it and summer says that’s half mummy, so we get on a conversation about fractions ( they don’t realise it ) we go round the front room seeing what we can put in half the curtains. the DVDs , the room thanks to some very helpful toys J then we go onto 1/3rds and 1/4s half an hour later we are rolling around the floor trying to split ourselves in half………..shit was that a math lesson??!!

Maybe I just need the confidence to actually do it…….and maybe the problem is more me being scared of failing and people saying I told you so.

Or should I keep them in full time school and carry on with the “lessons” at home, I’m going round in circles and I’m sure I am doing most peoples head in by now . I need a sign. Fingers crossed I get one soon.

“While we try to teach children all about life our children teach us what life is all about”

Love craziness and confusion Bon xxx